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Without A Label (copyright 2005 Midnight Sun)
Track 1: Everybody Track 9: Frustration
Track 2: Interlude-introduce myself Track 10: Interlude- bootleggin'
Track 3: Swim Or Stay Track 11: Meaningless
Track 4: Price Of Freedom Track 12: Interlude- give me a break
Track 5: Interlude- it hurts so much Track 13: Tonight's The Night
Track 6: To Grow In Hell Track 14: 360
Track 7: Which Way Do I Go Track 15: Interlude-censorship sucks
Track 8: Interlude- Believe Track 16: Twisted

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(everybody) Hit it and move it like you, want to consume it and you, need to be moving like you hate it can I shake it with you? Mutha fuckas want to be seen just standing next to you, can they get the best of you? They TRY and step to you. Uh, ha, I'm guessin not as you're workin it right next to me, shakin your body and baby movin it so freakily. Inchin up closer and you're trying to tempt me I'm playin the tease, you make a uh uh sigh of release, I'm steppin closer, you feelin me breathe I hear your heart as it beats and everybody wanna chase I play it cool as she creeps. She lookin in my eyes, I'm actin like I'm fine, and in this game of lust and love eh yo I'm makin her mine. "On top in record time" but yo this girl's such a sweety I can't play her tonight. Eh yo I'm flexin, but testin I'm stressin softly I need to learn the lessons that's testin got me stressin, just let it go

Chorus: I was so caught, deep in her eyes, I guess I should have known it would be a bad night, pictures of beauty till I heard the sound, of a gun blaze, "everybody get down" another night of nothing, I'm sick of it all, everybody I just want to party with ya'll

So I'm thinkin of a plan to get this in up in my hands, I keep on thinkin damn, what am I me or just a man. I think I made a mistake, better break and take estate of the date we make and if there's interest in me then great, come on we're out of this place. But as we exit the floor, I think I see something wrong, a man dressed in all black with a pair of leather gloves on, is this what I think it is? Grab my girl tight and wait for the meaning of this, EH YO he's rippin the chrome and sprayin he's sprayin the led, we hit the ground some poor she just ended up dead. Why is it every single time, that I meet myself a dime, some mutha fuckas step up, and ruin people's night. I'm sick of all this bullshit, anybody out there with it? Just wanna dance or freak some love, kisses wanna touch it. Not duckin shots and savin lives from gat clad muthas wishes, ya understand why we clubbin in the first place? What is it?

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So let's recap with this thing that you don't understand, you never had a plan, you fuckin wish you were a man, I'm sick of goin to clubs, my flow gets fucked up, yo, we wanna party and you slingin the slugs? Somebody bumped into you, now I'm duckin it down? Scare my girl out of her mind I gotta deal with you now? All I want to do is my thing just like everybody, you wanna kill each other fine, exit the party. You fuckin DICKS exist to inject distress, try and be hard with the gun, you say ur the best. It's not worth it anyway, put it away, get your ass up on the floor it's time to party. Nobody wants to die, nobody wants to run, ya act like gettin shot up in the back is fun. I know all the other rappers say "shoot up the club" but what's that really do except fuck it all up?

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It's too dark and cold for me to see any light, course maybe it would help if I opened my eyes. I'm blind I don't know why, I'm barely even sane, but my eyes swelled shut, from all the pain. I'd force em open, but I'm too confused, I'd love to open up inside, but it's hard to do. Why do I do these things that make me hurt, why do I make more pain- then I deserve? I really want to win yes I know that I do, but to make it all the way, well it scares me too. I wish I could succeed, for once in my life, but these internal battles are so hard to fight.

Chorus: It was like a dream, I was stuck in the sea, trapped on a rock, but at least it was saftey. So all day, I would stare and think, there must be a life that's meant for me. I'm gettin nervous, I start to pace all day, I really really need for everything to change. Even if I lose, the few things I have, I don't want a life all about my past. That's when it changed, is it really a dream? I opened up my eyes to the sky and scream "my whole LIFE I was a afraid, to choose my fate, but today I decide do I swim or stay!".

Some people say, to seize the day, what a beautiful thought, to not be afraid. To decide who you are, and what you want to do, instead of roamin this earth, without any clue. It's like a joke sometimes, is how I feel, like there's somebody laughin, whenever I can't deal, with the pressure the pain, the need to escape, the desire to climb, but the mountain side breaks away. And every time I grasp, for a chance to move up, I slide right down and have to start back up. To get where I am took me too damn long, i know what to do but can I be that strong?

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So here I stand, where there's no lookin back, I gotta figure out what I want, and choose a path. Butterflies start to form my stomach's a knot. Could a fool like me make it to the top? Yo, It's crazy I know, for me to even try, but I feel you out there, the few that might, believe in me and what I'm tryin to change, that there's people out there, that want the same. To finally be free and NOT fear mistakes, to be who I am, no matter what it takes, if I do this, well I could fuck it all up, but I GOTTA start believin bein me is enough.

chorus: -bridge- As I stare at the water, I feel so alone, waitin in fear as I watch the time go, it's gotten to the point either way is okay, but I've got to decide which way today- chorus my whole life I was afraid to choose my fate, but today I decide "do I swim or stay?".

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Eh yo fuck this shit I'm sick of bein nice, sick of holdin my tongue every single night. Tried bein kind now I'm on my knees, now I'm gonna take back what you took from me.

When I was a boy, no more older then ten, I watched my friend's dad punch his wife in the head, as I saw it comin, I believed it'd miss. As it made contact, explosions hit. And when hit her, it was as if it hit me, then SO many waves of emotion I couldn't breathe. I was in shock, as I watched her go down, I looked up in her eyes, I just heard the sound, of dead air, 'cause noone knew how to react. I was just so shocked I couldn't believe that I stood there as she hit the ground, and felt nothin at all never made a sound, just watched didn't cry or get mad inside, she fell so hard, I knew she died. I still can't grasp in this aftermath I mean how do you react to somethin like that?

Chorus: The Feeling of frustration, pain of submission, she fell down, he kept on hittin, she was all alone, and he wasn't through I hate myself 'cause of what I didn't do. On the ground bloody, she looked at me and she said, "it was worth it to finally be free

Smell the smoke, from a mile away, everybody wanna run, but I think I'll stay, and watch all these flames as they burn above. 'Cause I don't want to forget, about what happened to us. Let the woman in this song, represent it all, metaphors of what happened, how it's wrong. Pictures of victims dragged through the street, buildings crash down- STILL they can't eat. Nothin they do, makes em any more free, so they feel the need to kill people like you and me. Their leader gets to eat, every single day, they don't get a dime but, they follow him anyway. I KNOW what it's like no one cares when you're poor, they'd step over your baby while it's dead on the floor. "Yeah it's genocide, but come on their poor." How could you pussies protest this war?

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For the first time in my life, I see many nations, standin ready to die, are to abuse everything we hate? Is it all really gonna have to end this way? As I look over the battlefield I'm scared to see, blood from all sides this isn't gonna be, the type of fight anyone is gonna expect. It's gonna be the type of fight that's covered in regret. It'll be the fight that no one can explain, full of complaints that all sound the same. " Well, he did this and they did that, so we pulled the gat, and we shot back, killed civilians to show em that killin's bad" Grab the blade with they neck as they try to stab. Hypocrits anti up and approach the table, we're like a family from the grave to the cradle. EVERY COUNTRY HATES AMERICA SIMPLY, BECAUSE WE'RE ON TOP AT THE MOMENT BUT REALLY, WHEN THEY'RE HUNGRY WHO DO THEY EXPECT TO FEED? SO TELL ME AGAIN, WHO'S THE ONE WITH GREED??? Every one of you is like that man, beaten a woman who'd rather save her kids then herself from your hand.

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(i got somethin to say, and um... it's kinda difficult, I just hope, I just hope I don't screw it up)

Sittin on a park bench I look in the sky. As my mind drifts I hear the sound of child cry. As I look, there's a kid, yes he's all alone, bruises on his skin I think he ran away from home. I was debatin on waitin to see if somebody would help him. It's starts to rain people run for shelter. So her'es this kid bleedin his tears stream down, as far as they could, he never made a sound. That's the kinda way it is everywhere, you cry out to them, but nobody cares. I think they knew the same pain back in the past, so it boggles my mind, how they can walk right past and pass a child by, and don't listen at all. Society's gotten a little more closed off. Lookin at him, up in the corner of their eye, it must hurt so much to feel left behind.

Chorus: Imagine seein people that could help you any day, but it doesn't even matter cause they just walk away. You try to scream out, but you're too scared to yell, I'm so sick and tired of havin to live in hell. You see people that could help you every day, now while you watch try to scream as they walk away. Sorry your voice don't work, NO, you're too scared to yell, and this is what it's like when you're growin up in hell. You see people that could help you any day, and as you watch try to scream but they walk away, your voice don't work, you're too scared to yell, so now you know what it's like when you grow in hell

Now in my lifetime, I've seen some sick sights, terror that makes you wanna close your eyes and hide. The only way to survive, is to say you're okay. Home is torture, saftey's miles away. And you wanna run, but all you do is hide, and you wish it would end time after time. Kids beaten by people that aren't parents, until they vomit on themselves, forced to ask if, they can please be allowed, to clean the mess they made, then beaten again for something they forgot to say. Make me watch, the tip of a ciggarette gleam, stuck in my skin, and then burned till it bleeds. People always knew what was going on, and not a soul cared, until I wrote this song. And nobody wants to listen when I say I want to leave, it must hurt so much No ONE will believe.

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(you really wanna know what it's like, you really wanna know? okay, then here it is)

Child protection, it don't do nothin, and parents out there, they don't do nothin, and people all around, just keep on walkin, officials ain't doin nothin but talkin. I knew a girl, innocent beautiful didn't survive, her father's fists, 'cause no one took the time. He beat her to death, then what happened next? Case in point, NOTHIN he just left. So I sit down, 'cause it makes me weak, I look up in the sky all I do is think, about ALL the souls I left behind, and feel so guilty I was too weak to FIGHT.

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so now ya know, what it's like, to grow in hell

so now ya know, what it's like, to grow in hell

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(this is a song to all the people, who when they tried to make their life good... the bad just kept pullin em back)

Ever since I was born, been changin places been hated, for reasons unknown but everybody debated the justness of my punishments, did I deserve em? Many years of pain abuse, but did I really earn em? I guess I must apologize, for the loyalty I had. I did my best to help you, everyone remember that. 'Cause when I'm pushed to the end and then I'm ready to snap, ya'll can't look at me funny and say "where was his head at?". 'Cause it's the hate that you brought, why I could care less about you, and the thought of your death would do little to remove, the cold from my heart, eternal thoughts, eventually caught by a man with an offer most couldn't refuse. And so I must choose, continue in impoverished hell? Or kill a few people with five grand entailed. Is this, the life of another, worth it to relinquish my hunger? One can only wonder... one can only wonder.

Chorus: This life is gettin hard, I don't know if I, can push away, the demon inside. Yo should I be a killer? Or should I say no? Even if I resist there's no where else to go. Eh yo I'm so lost, I'm all alone, I'm gettin scared, where should I go? Should be a killer? Or Should I say no? Even if I resist, there's no where else to go. This life is gettin hard, and I don't know if I, can push away, the demon inside, eh yo I'm so lost, I'm all alone... which way do I go?

I can't go down this path again because it's covered in blood, I might slip and fall again go through that pain for what? But I can't go down this other road, because it's cold, and I'll only end up starving to death, all alone. I gotta find a job, but everywhere I go, only laughter errupts between, looks and groans like, hooks in bones, puppateers my soul, guiding me in paths in ways I can't control, it's like once things get good is when it gets real bad, I finally clean myself and there this guy is again, with tales of money and "trust me, 'cause it'd be easy for you" he says I got what it takes, I might enjoy myself too. "Look I cut you yesturday, and now that wounds almost healed, you're a natural survivor that's why you need me here."

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Starin into the sky it's covered in black, as if the world all at once decided to turn it's back, and my heart breaks in half, lookin back on my past, decidin what's more important for me to be or to have? I fall to my knees and I ask, think of others fifteen minutes behind the mask and if I can get past, the low times up in the gutter. A choice should be made, in which way I'll soon discover. I'm tryin so hard but everybody wants to hurt me, it's difficult to care about the ones who desert me. Both paths filled with weakness and it tears in my soul, to give in to the pain, bred from the hate of em all. Everybody wants me dead, to be punished for breathin, maybe this choice is a lesson maybe my heart is bleedin, maybe I'm a good, or maybe I'm bad, it's gotten to the point I can't even recall who I am, or do I kneel or stand.

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(now I know a few people in this club got a little scared just now, but you all know how to move to a beat. So let me see you move, let me see your bodies all shake and move in tune)

I'm the kinda person that loses himself like every day. Runnin but I'm lost surprisingly I find my way. People love to change, we feel as though we have no place. Run to catch up and then thus begins the rat race. It's society's belief we're put here to perform, livin out our days and faster inflictin self harm. In time, I lose my mind, slowly cry as I ask why, In time, I lose my mind, slowly cry, as I ask why

chorus: People they change every day next they could be you, force you to see what they wish but never be true. People they change every day next they could be you, force you to see what they wish but never be true. Can't be somethin that I'm not, stop tryin to make, can't pretend I'm somebody else why do you hate me? Can't be somethin that I'm not, stop tryin to make, can't pretend I'm somebody else why do you hate me?

Insecurity slowly builds up until we burst, anger and rage get switched hatred first. Unsure and lost searchin for the start of the trail, constantly told all the ways I'm bound to fail. Consistently asked not to be what I am, to not make any friends, to become property again. Maybe these are the reasons, others change every way, walk with the legs talk with two heads that they switch day by day. I can't believe that a life, could get treated so bad, can't believe people would want me to be somethin I can't

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Ya know somethin I'm sorry but the way I see, parents try to ruin their kids so they don't get beaten. Like it's a competition and parents feel threatened. Don't want the offspring to be makin more then they're makin. Afraid of NOT bein the supermen they never were, never were nothin you'll be the same way they'll make sure. Unless mommy and daddy are doin what you want to do, they'll probably be the last thing you want to listen to. That's why I think people change, 'cause nobody wants em, that's why I think people change, no other choice will see em.

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When I smile I fake it make it sizzle like bacon I put up a real front and everyone takes it. Nobody sees me don't care if they meet me as long as my clothes are named what they need to be. It's oh so lonely when everybody stares, it hurts every time I stop and check my hair. I'm constantly worried if it's in the right place, I feel so foolish when I go out on dates. When I sleep sometimes it feels so good, to not hurt each day that I'm misunderstood, it's so hard to say it, the thought hits my mind, I wish I could sleep away my life.

Chorus: Well you want so much but I can't compare, the image that you want is scribbled and unfair. I guess I'm not good, that picture's not me, is life all about these meaningless things? Well you want so much but I can't compare, the image that you want is scribbled and unfair. I guess I'm not good, that picture's not me, is life all about these meaningless things?

A flash of an idea trickles into my brain, but the thought of a noose interrupts what came. It's neat and clean and nobody will hear... 'course I don't want my sister to be covered in tears. I think maybe a gun shot in the middle of woods. The trees will hide me, maybe even for good. They won't come lookin so my sis won't see. course I don't want animals to come and eat me. I guess some pills will have to do the trick, suddenly stomach pains, they make me sick. The pain make sense, so deep inside, it's like what I've been tryin to say this whole time.

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As I sit and write, I got my pen in my hand, I try to find the words so people'll understand. Nobody listens, well cause nobody cares, if they heard the words, well then they'd be aware. Then it finally happens that's when I realize, this it the last time so I better speak right. I feel it I hear it it's on the tip of my tongue it feels so good, now maybe I've won. What is it I can't think I'm comin unhoooked, fuck it's from all of these pills I done took. I know now what it is that I wished I'd said, but I can't find the strength to life my pen.

I just wanted to die, maybe for a short time, it don't make sense but the thought is mine. Whether I'm wrong or right, I just don't care, as long as one person will finally hear. My whole life is like, I had no voice, 'cause I'd scream and scream, no heard noise. It's like bein in prison, inside your own mind, when nobody cares what you feel inside. I say they don't listen, they call me sick, I say I got nothin so they buy me things. I feel alone they set me up with a chick, I felt so trapped so I had to do this.

This pen is so heavy, please I wanna write, the feelings that I have so my friends know why. I can't do it, no my arms are weak, my head hit's the table, I can't even blink.

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(ya wanna know what I really think heaven is? It's every person regardless of sex, race, color, creed or anything that can be seen. No matter what religion or sexual orientation, every mutha fucker on this earth, for just one night, everyone gets down, well tonight's the night baby, here we go)

Hit it up touch it up how ya wanna move? Feel the sex in the air whatchu wanna do? You Wanna look wanna touch wanna feel it too? Havin orgies in the bed like I got a clue. Eh yo I'm sick of being judged how I live my life, I love to have sex but I got no wife. Like handcuffs but not on my mind, chain me to the bed for a good time. It's not a disfunction abnormal sign, just cause I, like some things that I think are fine. And you may not but that's okay, 'cause tonight's the night we all get to play

chorus: Tonight's the night everybody's gonna have fun, tonight's the night you go fuck someone, Tonight's the Night you don't have to run, tonight's the night that we all get some. Geek'll fuck a cheerleader, rich'll be all ghetto here, leave your fakeness at the door, come on baby give it all. Tonight's the night for somethin scandless, tonight's the night 'cause the world can't stand us tonight's the night baby tonight's the night, tonight's the night, tonight's the night.

Now there's no such as whores or sluts just women who like to fuck. And there's no such things as dogs or players just guys who like to fuck. Now some guys like guys and there's chicks with chicks but it all extends out lust. Cross dressers here and necros over there but we all just want a nut so... nut. Now if you like orgies grab some friends, if you like to fuck, do it again. If you like chains then go get shackled if you like it rough then go get tackled.

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Ain't Mutha fuckin thing that's wrong with sex, and if ya think so let's do a test. Placed up in a room of your deepest dreams, see how high the room gets filled with creams. See ya lie to yourself and then to your kids, so uptight about shit you bruise your ribs. Don't take this too rough but I think you're scared, about your desires you're just unprepared. Free yourself for tonight my friends, bust off your nuts before this real night ends, and if ya got enemies then make amends 'cause the only thing tonight is love my friends.

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They took from me, everything that I am, they took from me, everything that I am, now all I have, is some hope to get back, to find my way to the person I left, the person I left.

Life for me was always confusin, bein told my whole life i'm nothin but useless. Ya know my hearts been heavy for so many years that I don't even remember how to shed any tears. Bottled up so much I hate this feelin inside, do you know what I'm sayin about that feelin inside? I could fail, everybody could laugh at me, what if I am good enough, but nobody sees? So I run from the mistakes, and do nothing to change, the thought of me a success, it feels so strange. 'Cause what if the world never accepts who I am, and I came this far only to lose again. No I don't need you to add any more fears to my plate, I just need a little help instead of all of this debate. I don't need you to tell me all the ways that I could, 'cause trust me I could figure that out myself.

Chorus: It's like a 360 and I'm comin back to myself, born the right way raised to be someone else. 360 but now I see, the best way to say fuck you, is be me. A 360 and I'm comin back to myself, born the right way raised to be someone else, a 360 but now I see, the best way to say fuck you, is be me.

Make mistakes, I hate to hesitate, come on grow, everybody go lose control. Forget believin that you don't ever deserve, any thing in this world that you know that you've earned. Ya, you may never understand why these people hate you, I think they just hate how much they're really like you. Dad, mom, glad you think I'm wrong, tell me how I'll fail and I'll put it in a song. Come on why would I ever want to be like you? You're not doing anything that I want to do. Eh yo, I tried to understand why you don't believe, I'm fightin so hard but you can't accept me. People get offended when you see things different, to the people out there who were too scared to listen. I haven't thought about you in so damn long and to think, I started off to prove you wrong.

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I was raised on lies, it was hard to see it. I was hurt so much, 'cause I wouldn't believe it. Fought so hard, now I'm all confused, but I at this 360 comin back to you. The people that hate you wanna be just like you, they say you're gonna fail cause that's what they do. They call ya nothin, when you're more then them, they want you to quit so you could be like them FUCK EM.

Am I alone? Can anybody hear what I say? Does it hurt you too? Every time that you change? Has anyone else forgotten what it's like to feel? Ran away from yourself to let the wounds heal? If this is you, if this is me, then let me see your hands up baby 360. If this is you, if this is me, then come on baby MOVE yourself 360 (laughing) 360.

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They took from me, everything that I am, they took from me, everything that I am, now all I have, is some hope to get back, to find my way to the person I left, the person I left.

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(I'm fuckin sick of it, I'm tellin ya right now, one muther fucker makes another remake, and I'm gonna kill somebody. I'm sick of this shit, it's all the same thing, ya got muther fuckers remakin shit from like, yesturday. it's fuckin stupid.

Turn on your radio, tell me what you hear is it good at all? Or does it sound the same as all the other shit that's out there today. I kinda get nautious don't you? When you hear something new that's old too? Remakes is all that's sold, can't even tell if there's thought involved. Or is it just cut this and paste it, here and steal this it's basically, just producers, read manuals to make hits. I sit here and listen to them, only get a headache again, you made a million for this? Look at all my time you wasted.

chorus: Twist twist twisted remakes and fake shit, uniqueness is long gone I'm so sick of it. They see us as insignificant, we pay so they can rap what the fuck is this? They see us as insignificant, we pay so they can rap what the fuck is this?

(fuck you) Why say that you're from the streets, when the streets that you mean were paved and neat. Had an easy ride your entire life, yo, sat back as the real ones died. Watched and laughed and then said you were there. Look at you now as you change your hair and the clothes and the style that you have today, change to whatever's gonna make you money. Only concerned with cash and bein seen with ass, sacrifice a song just to make the dash. To the top of the charts don't matter how, steal everything never make a sound. The top ten, all sound the same, stickin up your nose talkin shit every day. Mistreat your fans like it's you they need, but without them you wouldn't even breath.

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Do we the listeners actually mean anything anymore? Are we as useless and artifical as your cd? Should I use one of your fans as a coaster like I do your album? Get your own shit. And another thing, stealin, is not sampling, it's fuckin stealing. You think because you call it sampling people aren't gonna know that you stole the entire melody from some fuckin 1980s song? And then you sit there and say that you're the shit, the fuckin thing was a hit then, it wasn't a hit because of you, nothin's a hit because of you mutha fucker.

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You don't write your lyrics, don't make your beats, your whole image is a product of a team of producers, I'm not even tryin to say I'm better then you. I'm speaking from a listeners standpoint. Everybody fuckin sucks, everybody.

now let's all get together and spend some money on them so that way they can get paid for not doin shit... fuckin bastards.

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